nerves.

I hate being nervous, yet at the same time, I like it. I like the feeling of getting butterflies in my stomach and not knowing what's going to happen next. It freaks me out to be unable to predict the future, but i'm amazed at the fact that I don't have to worry about it because God has my entire life already planned out for me. Speaking of God, I love him. He has been showing me His love in the most amazingly bizarre ways lately. For example, I taught a cheer camp earlier this week with Logan. It was out in the middle of nowhere (seriously, there was no cell service and most of them didn't have internet). I followed Logan there, but had to leave early and drive home by myself on Wednesday. I had my brother's GPS and my daddy's car, so everything was sweet. The weather was yucky all morning, but I wasn't too worried because it was only sprinkling when I started my trip home. Not even 15 minutes after leaving the school, it started pouring. Being the baby that I am, I am so scared of driving in the rain. I don't know why, but it just really freaks me out. So I was starting to get nervous. While freaking out about the fact that it was raining so hard, I missed a turn because i'm an idiot and had the radio on louder than the GPS. So here I am, driving in the middle of nowhere with no clue as to where I am, and the battery on the GPS dies. I seriously started crying. I was so scared. I honestly thought that I was going to hydroplane, slide off the road, and die there because there was no cell phone service or civilization. (I know, i'm a freak, I can't help it.) The only thing I could think of to do was pray. With my hands gripping the steering wheel so hard that my knuckles were turning white, I asked God to keep me safe. I told Him that I was scared and that I didn't know where I was. I begged Him to protect me and guide me home. God answers prayers. I am not even kidding you...as I said amen, the rain stopped. The sun started shining. And my GPS turned back on! Please tell me that was not God working first-hand. I was just like, wow God, thanks! I know i'm probably more dramatic than most people and normal 20-year-olds would not find rain and a dead GPS a big deal...but it was a big deal for me. The fact that God was RIGHT THERE is huge! I wasn't dying. I probably would have made it home fine. But God helped me. He calmed my fears and answered my prayer RIGHT AWAY. He is just so good to me, and has been showing me all summer that He's here. He always has been, and He always will be. So I guess to tie this whole post together...I like being nervous, because I like when God calms my nerves. Like right now, I am getting super nervous for my fantana contest. Top ten finalists will probably be announced sometime next week, and I want with all of my heart to be included in one of those ten spots. But I know that my nervousness isn't going to change anything. If God wants it to happen, He's going to make it happen. That's why He is so good.

I love God because He always knows how to calm my fears and nerves.