Sometimes I think about my life and i'm just like, wow--God must really love me. Like, lately I just feel like everything is so good. Yesterday (Saturday), Christina and I decided we were going to spend the day camping. Of course our 40 minute drive to camp turned into a 3 hour adventure that involved the tire blowing out, but it was totally worth it. Round Lake is absolutely my favorite place in the whole world, and even though we were there less than 24 hours...it really filled my heart.
I wish that every single person in the world could have a friendship like the one I have with Christina Ward. She is by far one of the most incredible, selfless, caring persons I have ever had the blessing of knowing. I am convinced that we were meant to be twins; we are so much alike. It actually kind of freaks me out how much we have in common. I just love her. Last night, we sat on the dock for hours just talking about life and relationships and God and our futures and the realization of how blessed I am just took my breath away. There I was: in my favorite place, with my best friend, on a beautiful night just sitting by the lake talking about anything that was on my mind and in my heart. It's moments like that that remind me of how great God is and how He knows exactly what I need.
On Tuesday morning, I will be leaving for New York City. I'm auditioning for the Disney Cruise Line on Wednesday morning and I don't even know where to begin to describe my emotions. I'm insanely excited, yet at the same time I am ridiculously nervous. As always, i'm overly optimistic and am confident that I have a good chance of getting this job. I feel like God is making everything possible -- why would He push me toward this door if He wasn't going to let me through it, you know? It would be such an incredible experience for me, and timing is perfect. I have nothing holding me back. I have no ties here that are so strong that I wouldn't be able to leave for 9 months. He's lining everything up perfectly. I really want this. (I wouldn't mind a few positive prayers though, despite my optimism.) I just feel like we're finally chasing the dream and i'm praying that this time it's coming true.
Q&A
Someone asked me the other day why I like blogging so much, and I didn't really have a solid response for them. I think my answer was along the lines of, "I just like it." Because that was a quick and easy response for someone I could tell didn't want to listen for an answer. The real reason I blog? I just have a lot to say, and journals always listen. So maybe only 3 people read my blogs...awesome. Maybe someday i'll have a ton of followers who are interested in my thoughts and emotions. Maybe someday God will use me to speak to a stranger. Maybe it's just easier for me to make sense of things when I write about them. I think that's why people do most of the things that they do: to make sense of what they can't control, to show their heart and their passion. My blog lets people see a side of my heart that they may never take the time to get to know. The side that isn't afraid. I don't have to be afraid when I blog, because the computer is like a shield: protecting me from direct judgement or negativity. Maybe that's it...when I blog, I pretend that everyone wants to know what I have to say.
peaceandlove<3
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
Philippians 2:6-8
Last night, we had our second meeting for our Peru trip. It's basically just a big get together to talk about what we'll be doing/ what to expect/ etc. At both meetings, we have been giving bible verses to read and discuss with the people at our tables. Yesterday, my table was given Philippians 2: 6-8. We read and discussed it with one another, and then I read it aloud to the room and told them what I thought it meant. And then before I went to bed I heard it in my head. When I woke up this morning: heard it again. I just can't stop thinking about it and I am truly even more in awe of God because of these short verses.
[Philippians 2:6-8] "6Who, though He was in the form of God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, 7but made himself nothing, taking the very form of a servant, being made in human likeness. 8And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death— even death on a cross!"
I don't remember exactly how I explained it at the meeting, because I'm pretty sure God took over my voice for a few minutes. (I should let Him take over my voice all the time, because He says some really good things.) Regardless, here's why I am so in love with Jesus Christ:
He didn't HAVE to do anything for me. He was royalty. He had everything He could ever want. He could have stayed in Heaven, hanging out with his Father and the angels; never having to worry about anything or feel any pain. But He didn't. He came to earth to live as a slave. He died the most painful death any human being could ever suffer. Why? Not because it was such a fabulous life. Not because Bethlehem was cooler than Heaven. BECAUSE HE LOVES US. He humbled Himself, for the sole purpose of spreading love to people who need it.
That is exactly why I'm going to Peru this summer. As an act of love. I don't have to. Nobody told me to go. I could stay in Ohio; in my nice house with a comfortable bed, friends and family who love me and take care of me, an abundance of water and nourishment, flushing toilets, a job, a car, a safe neighborhood. Let's be honest, I'm living the good life. And if you're reading this, you most likely are too. I don't have to go to Peru, but I need to. I have been blessed with so much love in my life, it's seriously insane. Sometimes I feel like my heart is going to explode! (In a good way. Like, a big love-bomb splattering on anyone I come in contact with.) I feel like my purpose in life is to share that love. God's love. And this summer, I want to share that love with the people of Peru.
Jesus Christ humbled Himself to save our lives. To love us. We are called to be Christ-like. Followers of God. Striving every single day to be more like Him.
I'm not saying you need to travel across the country to be more like Jesus. I'm just saying that if He can leave Heaven to live as a servant and die on a cross for us, the least we can do is share His love with people who need a little bit of hope in their lives.
peaceandlove<3
[Philippians 2:6-8] "6Who, though He was in the form of God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, 7but made himself nothing, taking the very form of a servant, being made in human likeness. 8And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death— even death on a cross!"
I don't remember exactly how I explained it at the meeting, because I'm pretty sure God took over my voice for a few minutes. (I should let Him take over my voice all the time, because He says some really good things.) Regardless, here's why I am so in love with Jesus Christ:
He didn't HAVE to do anything for me. He was royalty. He had everything He could ever want. He could have stayed in Heaven, hanging out with his Father and the angels; never having to worry about anything or feel any pain. But He didn't. He came to earth to live as a slave. He died the most painful death any human being could ever suffer. Why? Not because it was such a fabulous life. Not because Bethlehem was cooler than Heaven. BECAUSE HE LOVES US. He humbled Himself, for the sole purpose of spreading love to people who need it.
That is exactly why I'm going to Peru this summer. As an act of love. I don't have to. Nobody told me to go. I could stay in Ohio; in my nice house with a comfortable bed, friends and family who love me and take care of me, an abundance of water and nourishment, flushing toilets, a job, a car, a safe neighborhood. Let's be honest, I'm living the good life. And if you're reading this, you most likely are too. I don't have to go to Peru, but I need to. I have been blessed with so much love in my life, it's seriously insane. Sometimes I feel like my heart is going to explode! (In a good way. Like, a big love-bomb splattering on anyone I come in contact with.) I feel like my purpose in life is to share that love. God's love. And this summer, I want to share that love with the people of Peru.
Jesus Christ humbled Himself to save our lives. To love us. We are called to be Christ-like. Followers of God. Striving every single day to be more like Him.
I'm not saying you need to travel across the country to be more like Jesus. I'm just saying that if He can leave Heaven to live as a servant and die on a cross for us, the least we can do is share His love with people who need a little bit of hope in their lives.
peaceandlove<3
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