favorite place, twin, and chasing dreams.

Sometimes I think about my life and i'm just like, wow--God must really love me. Like, lately I just feel like everything is so good. Yesterday (Saturday), Christina and I decided we were going to spend the day camping. Of course our 40 minute drive to camp turned into a 3 hour adventure that involved the tire blowing out, but it was totally worth it. Round Lake is absolutely my favorite place in the whole world, and even though we were there less than 24 hours...it really filled my heart.

I wish that every single person in the world could have a friendship like the one I have with Christina Ward. She is by far one of the most incredible, selfless, caring persons I have ever had the blessing of knowing. I am convinced that we were meant to be twins; we are so much alike. It actually kind of freaks me out how much we have in common. I just love her. Last night, we sat on the dock for hours just talking about life and relationships and God and our futures and the realization of how blessed I am just took my breath away. There I was: in my favorite place, with my best friend, on a beautiful night just sitting by the lake talking about anything that was on my mind and in my heart. It's moments like that that remind me of how great God is and how He knows exactly what I need.

On Tuesday morning, I will be leaving for New York City. I'm auditioning for the Disney Cruise Line on Wednesday morning and I don't even know where to begin to describe my emotions. I'm insanely excited, yet at the same time I am ridiculously nervous. As always, i'm overly optimistic and am confident that I have a good chance of getting this job. I feel like God is making everything possible -- why would He push me toward this door if He wasn't going to let me through it, you know? It would be such an incredible experience for me, and timing is perfect. I have nothing holding me back. I have no ties here that are so strong that I wouldn't be able to leave for 9 months. He's lining everything up perfectly. I really want this. (I wouldn't mind a few positive prayers though, despite my optimism.) I just feel like we're finally chasing the dream and i'm praying that this time it's coming true.



Q&A
Someone asked me the other day why I like blogging so much, and I didn't really have a solid response for them. I think my answer was along the lines of, "I just like it." Because that was a quick and easy response for someone I could tell didn't want to listen for an answer. The real reason I blog? I just have a lot to say, and journals always listen. So maybe only 3 people read my blogs...awesome. Maybe someday i'll have a ton of followers who are interested in my thoughts and emotions. Maybe someday God will use me to speak to a stranger. Maybe it's just easier for me to make sense of things when I write about them. I think that's why people do most of the things that they do: to make sense of what they can't control, to show their heart and their passion. My blog lets people see a side of my heart that they may never take the time to get to know. The side that isn't afraid. I don't have to be afraid when I blog, because the computer is like a shield: protecting me from direct judgement or negativity. Maybe that's it...when I blog, I pretend that everyone wants to know what I have to say.




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